I am waving a timid hello.
How are you all? I haven’t been blogging recently because life has been nothing short of overwhelming if I am honest. I struggle to find the balance between creating uplifting content and throwing in real life sometimes. That comes from a place where I feel there is someone always worse off and who really needs to hear my problems after all?
But then isn’t it the knowing that we all share dark times, that ultimately brings us together? That and the love for a dress with pockets of course.
I will be honest and say there a part of my life that I have never shared online. The reason being is that I don’t want it to define me. Yet sometimes when I hear that people are comparing themselves to me I want to scream it from the rooftops. Without elaborating, I had a bit of a difficult childhood and unfortunately recent events have meant I have had to relive some of the feelings from back then.
Which has been emotional, I have been stress eating and gained a lot of weight, lived on sugar and generally have just been feeling very sad.
Which is fun.
As if to save me from the gloom, it only seems right that we sold our house. Finally it looked like we could focus on a new chapter. Followed by a week later an amazing and promising house comes on the market. I could hardly believe our luck. (I may have jumped up and down while clapping my hands like a child) After months of looking and struggling to accept the quality of house difference relocating would mean this seemed like a light at the end of the tunnel for me. Then (wait for it, here comes the plot twist) before I could even share the link with Si I get a phone call that our chain had broken and we had therefore no longer sold. This hasn’t been elaborated for story telling effect. It was this exact kick in the teeth.
Everything happens for a reason, I know that, but also it is pretty shit.
Dress (Has Pockets) Next Shoes Next
Over on Instagram however you might have seen that I have had two separate days where film crews were in my house. While it is kinda nuts, it is also great to be doing more with my career. I have basically thrown myself into work to try and rise above the cloud that has been over me the last few months. I really love my job and it has been such a blessing the last few months. The first film crew were Topps Tiles who were filing a house tour for their channel. I have used Topps Tiles to renovate both bathrooms. ( Downstairs renovation post here and upstairs here) The second filming day was working with Very which I cant wait to share with you. (Once I can)
I wouldn’t have these opportunities if you weren’t reading my blog like you are now and if you weren’t being supportive on my instagram account like you do. So I wanted to say thank you. A huge cheesy thank you. Mostly because my personal life has been testing and the escapism of social media has genuinely helped. I guess I wanted to put this post out there because I had been made aware that people were feeling disheartened by instagram. That they were comparing themselves to others. So now you all know that things are far from rosy over here so don’t ever let the fact I have a new dress make you feel rubbish. (even if it does have pockets)
This isn’t a searching for sympathy post. I am ok. I have perspective and know that despite some of these sad events, this will pass. Things normally work out just fine. (and if they don’t then there is always Pinterest quote to make you feel better)
Beautiful post and love your honesty. It’s hard not to look through the squares of Instagram and secretly compare yourself to others. I’m reality the squares are just snippets of people’s life’s and you really don’t know what goes on behind closed doors. I hope the recent events of having to re live your past hasn’t knocked you too much, just keep being you I honestly love your insta and your witty humour. Congrats on your filming, your smashing it. Xx
Thank you so much Georgina!
Beautiful post Cara. I love your posts and stories. You brighten my day. Well done for opening up and being so honest. You have the most gorgeous family and I love Wilf and Pidge 💖 Sending love and hugs xx
Thank you! Wilf and Pidge are definitely the stars of the show! (At least I hope they are!)
Hope things are a little brighter for you soon. I always find when you think things are at their worst there’s a little something around the corner that perks you up. Just remember you’ve still got great hair and a pretty dress with pockets ❤️
Thanks Judy! I am sure brighter days are coming. x
Aww Cara you are so open and honest. I hope everything from your past settles down and doesn’t knock your confidence too much. Keep doing what your doing. I love seeing your insta stories and your gorgeous doggies. Sending lots of hugs. Em x
Thank you Emma x
Things will be ok, eventually. Looking forward to seeing your collaboration with Very. Dress with pockets looks great and your hair, well no words needed ✨👌✨Hugs to you 🌸
Thank you lovely. x
Posts like this are one of the reasons why I love following you.
A nice big dollop of realism on a Monday morning.
Hope you feel brighter soon x
Ah thank you Laura! Real but hopefully not too grumpy for a Monday morning!
Love this post, your honesty, and your ability to make everything a little brighter with your comedy (sarcastic 😜)take on life!! I think we all know that the little squares on Insta hide real life events that are causing stress and upset – keep your chin up! You are so beautiful and have such a gorgeous family, please keep posting 😁 There’s a perfect home out there for you somewhere! Xx
You are so honest which is why people love you, great post- thank you. Sending you good vibes x
I’m so pleased for you that your hard work and amazing creativity and knack of making things look beautiful is paying off! You deserve it! I’m so sorry it’s been tough and testing time too. Praying for a deep sense of peace. You’re a breath of fresh air, beautiful and truly gifted! Xx
Today I hate insta and the way it makes me feel, but it lead me to your blog and for that I am glad. It must be hard to share so much. Wonderful post Cara and helps us remember that insta is just the tip of our personal icebergs. Fingers crossed for the house shiz x
Lovely, honest post as always Cara 💕 me and my sisters also had a bit of a different and more difficult childhood but I look at us all now and am so proud of how we are living our lives and you should be too! Your a breath of fresh air! Good luck with the house moving forward! xx
Your honesty and braveness in sharing is inspiring. I hope you have support with your emotional issues, personally I found therapy really helped me (so important to find a therapist you click with rather than any particular type) and still does. Love and hugs to you ❤️
Fabulous writing Cara, I’m not skilled enough to offer any advice or pearls of wisdom other than to keep looking forward and to thank your blessings that you have two amazing boys (I suppose Si isn’t bad too 😝). We all love the many sides of Cara, you’re beautiful, witty and perceptive and my heart lifts a beat when you post or you share a story. Keep brightening my day please but don’t worry about sharing the not so great parts, your honesty is probably the best part of you … maybe apart from your hair 💁♀️ Xxx
We love your honesty but totally get that some parts just can’t (and shouldn’t) be shared on instagram. What a crappy time you’ve had on the house front too – it can only get better.
Be kind to yourself and keep doing what you’re doing!
Rachel xx (rachelj_hearts)
I’m going through something that I think is similar – bad parental relationship in my childhood gone bad again recently – and it’s still hard even though I’m a grown up now and can make choices of my own. I hope you feel better about it all soon, I have found just sitting with my feelings and giving myself time to understand why I feel how I do helps. I also concentrate on my new family.
I don’t know your situation but just be kind to you especially and your little fam they are what matters now. Xx
Cara…. Your content is beautiful….
Sad can be beautiful too…
Because its honest… Balanced… Real… 💛
Sending you all the positive vibes beauty and really hoping things work themselves out 🌿 Your rralness and honestly has made me feel better and I know will help so many others ♥️
Ahhhh- we all seem to have some kind of “shat” in our lives. Past and/or present. I, too, have been a “my shat isn’t as bad as her/their shat” excuser . I’ve stayed in my “place”, using that as an excuse not to change. But through IG I’ve begun to think a little differently, I’ve seen how others have begun to overcome their “shat”. I’m
Glad you are so honest and sharing. You’re a wonderful Mom and have a sweet hubby! Your posts make me smile and your wit makes me laugh. Thank you for being you!
I couldn’t possibly love you any more,
You are my go too for an uplift even if you may not be feeling uplifted yourself.
Iv followed your insta journey since you worked in care (I think, may have that wrong)
I find you so inspiring and comforting at the same time. This all sounds a bit gushy but I just think your a bloody brilliant human 💞
Super honest and brave pal. Sending u a heap of love. Focus on that autumn wardrobe. Good things are coming 😘 Looking forward to the Very collab❤️
Another sob story, poor me, poor me! Get over yourself!
Ah Cara. Thanks for your honestly. Sorry to hear you’re going through a bit of a dark place. I hope things start to move forward for you soon. I think we all appreciate your honesty and of bourse humour as much as your nice hair, lush house, fab dresses and beautiful family. I think we all know deep down “ all that glitters” and all that. No ones life is perfect. Well done on all your hard earned success. Just keep keeping on.
Ah Cara. Thanks for your honestly. Sorry to hear you’re going through a bit of a dark place. I hope things start to move forward for you soon. I think we all appreciate your honesty and of bourse humour as much as your nice hair, lush house, fab dresses and beautiful family. I think we all know deep down “ all that glitters” and all that. No ones life is perfect. Well done on all your hard earned success. Just keep keeping on. Xx