Why I Don’t Want To Do This Forever

Why I Don’t Want To Do This Forever

Snappy title alert. Cant be good at everything eh? Let me just cut straight to it. I don’t think that I want to be a blogger for much longer. Here is the thing, I don’t even enjoy writing. You may have guessed that already. Not only am I not much of a story teller but I write as I talk and I am never completely sure when to put an apostrophe.

Let’s roll it back a little bit. Maybe I jumped into this post with too much force. I absolutely have one of the luckiest jobs out there. For me it ticks so many boxes. I am my own boss, I work from home and I get to be creative. So why am I moaning on about it then?

I have never felt like I fitted in. I have written about it before but often my dark sense of humour leaves me a little outcast in social situations. That was the reason Instagram and blogging appealed to me so much. It seemed like a place where I actually could fit in. Yet recently I am back to feeling like an outcast again. Whether this is simply all in my head or real life remains to be seen but it has given me the nudge to start thinking about what I really want to do.

At this point you may think I am a complete dreamer but hopefully there will be some big changes for us over the next year or so. We have plans to relocate (Berkshire/Surrey) and if that isn’t a chance for a fresh start then what is! These are my top things I want to do.


I know this isn’t a career choice but since we made the decision not to have anymore children my thirst for a large renovation project has been huge. Once we finally sell that is the plan for the next house. I have been looking prodominately at bungalows but my main requirements are that it is a unique property with little or no character features dictating how the property can be renovated. I have a good feeling that Si will let me be as creative as I want too. I have a board on my Pinterest full of ideas for the new house.

Work With The Elderly

This was my first job at age 13. I worked two hours a week in a residential care home, I remember how daunting it was to begin with. Those moments when the person you are caring for is so vulnerable and dependant on you are so unique and special. I have returned on and off to a care role since being 13 and most recently I used to work night shifts in a nursing home. There isn’t anything else that I have done that has given me the same sense of worth. Once we have moved house I am going to look into what volunteer work I can do. I really need to feel like I am giving something back.


This is the one where I know you’ll be rolling your eyes. However I read a quote about having a dream.





As we all know, Pinterest quotes are the foundations of all the things I do. Realistically what have I got to loose. I studied Media at university and I have always loved radio. Over the next year or two I want to actually see if I can achieve my dream job.






If it doesn’t happen for me then at least I tried. Sharing these dreams online feels a little nuts and a little self indulgent too. I have been searching for blogs where people have shared some success stories for a career change. If you know of any do let me know!




  1. June 29, 2018 / 9:46 am

    I can COMPLETELY relate to this whole post (even the apostrophe positioning!) , i’ve been blogging for 7 years now and on insta for a good while too, and for 2 years i made a small part time income from it. But here’s the thing, I don’t think i actually ever really enjoyed it. Its so materialistic, the comparison game gets me every time and leaves me feeling down, and I also now find it to be quite lonely. My kids are all growing up and i’m currently going through the whole interviewing /job seeking process (which is also painful.. rejection is a bitch i tell ya) as i would love to start a career that i can work hard at, to go to a job where there’s banter and camaraderie as well as trials and tribulations. I guess i don’t want my legacy to be that i posted a pic of my outfit everyday, lol! I think i’ve just grown out of it all tbh (even though i still post my ootd 4-5 times a week, so apparently i’m not quite ready to give it up just yet!). Not that there’s anything wrong with people doing that, its a personal thing and good luck to all that do make it a living, but it’s just not for me. So thanks for writing this; in a world that is social media crazy and where people are constantly trying to be instafamous, its great to hear the words from someone else that i too have been thinking. Best of luck with all your goals Cara, i know you’ll smash them. (also a radio station would be lucky to have you, you’re a total hoot!!haha!)

    • Cara
      June 29, 2018 / 10:04 am

      I felt nervous putting this post up because I think I’ve got no chance of getting a job in radio 😂 still gonna try!

      Blogging is definitely a tough one when it comes to comparing to others. It has really affected my mood!

      • Sineady
        June 29, 2018 / 10:51 am

        You should totally do a podcast!!! Bet it would be funny as hell.

        • Beth Grainger
          June 29, 2018 / 1:05 pm

          Yeah a podcast is an excellent idea! I’d listen!

  2. June 29, 2018 / 10:25 am

    Well done you for having a plan! Some of us are lucky that they’ve grown up knowing from the start what they wanted to do with their lives. Others don’t and have to try different things.. they might find something early on, they might still be looking years later. Everything you have done has got you to where you are now, but it doesn’t means you have to stay there. I’ve really enjoyed following your story so far and wish you all the best for the future. You’ll figure it out (which gives me hope that I will too!)

  3. Kerri
    June 29, 2018 / 10:32 am

    Your the only persons who’s blogs I read FYI. I can totally relate to this and often finding my self thinking where do I fit into this world. And also SURREY?! Hello neighbour 👯👯👯

    • Cara
      June 29, 2018 / 10:33 am

      Thank you Kerri! Yep hopefully Surrey!

  4. Alice
    June 29, 2018 / 10:37 am

    Cara you need a podcast! I enjoy your dark sense of humour and you can talk in depth about stuff or talk to interesting people.
    Good luck with the move!

    • Cara
      June 29, 2018 / 10:44 am

      I would like a podcast but I wouldn’t know where to start!

      • Elizabeth
        June 29, 2018 / 6:47 pm

        I too would love you to do a podcast, you are such a relatable lady someone I could imagine chatting at the school gates with or grabbing a coffee before pick up because you talk sense, no flowery oooo isn’t life wonderful bollocks just plain simple truth including warts and all. Keep searching for your dream radio job and we will all celebrate with you when it works out. Much love x

  5. June 29, 2018 / 11:37 am

    Cara this is such a great post! And for the record I think your writing is brilliant and you so often express things that I’ve been feeling but I’ve not had the balls to say them! So I just appreciate that you have the balls I don’t!
    I’ve recently decided to opt for a career change – I worked on the business side of the art industry for ten years and now have decided to try and be a self employed illustrator – which is terrifying and exciting all at the same time! Unfortunately the thought of telling this dream to all the actual artists I worked with for ten years was totally mortifying but …. you know what, in the end you have to shoot for the stars right? And if it doesn’t work out I’ll just look for a ‘normal’ job instead! And if they think I’m a right plonker then so be it I guess!
    You should totally start a podcast…. I’m sure you’d have at least 50K listeners just for a start!
    You’d be an absolutely brilliant radio presenter, your interiors taste and renovating ideas are to die for and you’re clearly a super duper caring and lovely mama….. so all of your dreams are pretty much already a reality :0) good good good luuuuuuuuuck xxxxxxx

  6. Jennie
    June 29, 2018 / 11:50 am

    I love this. Can I be added to the “examples of career change success stories” mailing list please! I’m dreaming of making a goal for a dream to publish a book for new mums. I can totally see (or rather hear) you on the radio! Go for it!

  7. June 29, 2018 / 3:12 pm

    I LOVE how real this is. I so admire your drive and courage to share your dreams. Absolutely go for it. I think you have a very exciting couple of years ahead! X

  8. June 29, 2018 / 11:22 pm

    Check out the ‘How I built this’ podcast. Amazing and one success story after another xx

  9. Claire Harwood
    June 30, 2018 / 6:15 am

    Loved this post Cara, and your platform on Instagram, and this post will hopefully help you achieve your dreams. You may not love writing, however you are a natural in front of the camera so I imagine you being a natural on the radio. Good luck with it all gorgeous xx

  10. SuzyT
    June 30, 2018 / 5:18 pm

    I really enjoy your blog posts for your honesty, irreverence and distinctive perspective on life. If you do change career please keep blogging too. One of my favourite bloggers lifeinacoldclimate has a day job and doesn’t seem to blog for money but simply to share her thoughts and interests. She also has the courage to think and live according to her own interests which I find endlessly inspiring. For example in one blog she trialled giving herself the freedom to dress herself as her seven year old daughter approaches putting together an outfit ( picking what pleased her and acting free of societal constraints/the stepford wives world of most instagram posts ). Its a space I think you would excel in as blogger in too.

  11. Emma
    July 6, 2018 / 7:29 am

    Great post. Check out Contact the Elderly when you are doing your research into voluntary work. They’re a great charity I’ve been volunteering with for 9 years. Happy to answer any questions you might have xx

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