Life Lately

Just a little catch up post. It would be easier if you popped over for  a cup of tea however all the builders are using my mugs in different corners of the house. Sippy cup anyone? No I thought not.

As I’m sure you are aware we are currently having work done on our house. We have saved up for an upstairs bathroom to be fitted. Our house has four bedrooms and Sonny has the largest one which had an en suite. The house doesn’t have an upstairs bathroom and when we viewed the it just over two years ago it was always our intention to put one in by halving Sonnys room. It feels a little surreal that it is actually happening. As I type!

We have renovated house’s in the past but nearly all of the work we have done ourselves. This obviously is a bigger and more skilled job so we have lots of people milling around working on the house. (Did I mention we are having the driveway block paved at the same time?)

For an introvert who can only manage about one social day a week this is particularly tough. Never sure whether its just my personality or an insecurity thing, I just need time away from people. I don’t put my immediate family in that box because I can just be myself around them.   Spending too much time with anyone one else can be exhausting. The politeness, the being chipper, when will it end.

We are two weeks in and the upstairs bathroom has gone from being some wardrobe space to an actual room now. It is bigger than I imagined which obviously is a pleasant surprise. Here are some before and after pictures of the progress.

Tiles are from Topps Tiles

Having the house full of people has made it difficult for me to take photographs like I normally would. Resulting in being really behind with work and my anxiety levels rising. Work has come to a point where I am being offered much bigger campaigns. With bigger commitment levels. I don’t know how I feel about it. My only aim with blogging was to cover the small part time wage I had when I worked night shifts. I always wanted to enjoy it and not ever take it too seriously. Now I’m at the point where I need to decide whether to accept these bigger campaigns. I m nervous because it takes me out of my comfort zone and I can’t decide if its something I want… hence the 20 ‘Did you receive my last email?’ emails.

That makes me come across like I have absolutely no ambition which is the polar opposite of how I used to be before having children. I do have ambitions but I am still rebuilding the loss of identity that hit me hard after having the boys. I fear that until I know what I want to be doing, I may easily be swept into directions that I didn’t choose. Does that make any sense?

 

Sorry for a rambling post. I guess I’ve used all my energy making bathing choices that I can’t make life ones too!

Hope you are all having the best week.

Cara

 

 

 

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  1. Louise Cullen
    September 29, 2017 / 1:57 pm

    I totally resonate with your post! I’ve been ambitious HR adviser all my days until I had Harris. He’s only 8 weeks but already I’m enjoying being a mum and just being at home with him. I know I’ll need to return to work at somepoint but I don’t want it to be some meaningless 100 mile per hour job for someone else where I’ll miss out on everything he does and is. It’s weird as it never crossed my mind that I would think this way. You know which campaigns you want to be part of. You’ll know if your heart. Don’t take too much on you’ll instantly regret and resent. One at a time and it’s OK to say no.

    • Cara
      September 29, 2017 / 2:35 pm

      Learning to say no is tough! But great advice thank you x

  2. October 1, 2017 / 7:57 pm

    Oh I feel the same when workmen are around. Earlier this year we had two young chaps rebuilding a wall in our back garden and I hated having to deal with them and make them drinks so I can’t imagine what it’s like when they’re in the house! I always feel so awkward!
    Hope the work progresses soon so that you can get back to normality.
    And re the bigger campaigns, totally deserved.
    Tracey x

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