I fear this may be another one of those posts where I stumble about and never get to the point.
Next week is our second wedding anniversary. Which I can hardly believe it has been two years already. I am very open about the fact I didn’t invest much emotion into my wedding day. It was a lovely day but I wasn’t overwhelmed with love and I wasn’t sobbing at the wonderful things people were saying. I guess I am just not moved by those things. They all seemed too forced to me. I am more likely to get teary over something small that I wasn’t expecting. Like a little ‘I’m so proud of you’ text out of the blue or when he offers to order Chinese food. (The offer is one he never expects me to actually agree to as he hates Chinese food but the willingness to sacrifice his happiness on such a massive level is always noted)
This year has been such a crazy one for us. My work commitments have grown massively and Si has started studying an MBA which means he has to dedicate around 15 hours a week to study. Before we got married I felt like we weren’t doing enough, weren’t being social enough and now I long for a day where we have absolutely nothing planned! (No sign of one for a while) This new lifestyle and being so busy has been such a blessing. We are getting on better than we ever have. Maybe its a new respect for how hard each of us are working, maybe its because the boys are a little older and we are not in that survival stage of bringing up very little demanding humans. I don’t really know.
What I do know is that it doesn’t feel like we have been together for 8 years. I mean having a 6 year is like a constant walking, talking (and some more talking) reminder of the time we have been together but it still seems like such a long time when you actually think about it.
We have decided that we aren’t going to buy each other gifts this year which I initially was fine with but I can’t help but think I will regret it if he is still encouraging the same idea when we hit some of the big numbers. I love him more than ‘cotton’ and ‘wood’ anniversaries but not more than diamonds. Who got to pick what you are meant to buy each year anyway! (After a little digging it seems to have originated from the Romans and has been commercialised in recent years, if your interested)
Si is a naturally really private person and as my blogging career has developed I know he has been out of his comfort zone. It is difficult to do what I do without including him in it but he has adjusted and started to understand why I love blogging so much. Which I am very thankful for.
There has been some talk about baby number three but it isn’t something that is on the cards yet (if ever) as our commitments are just too high at the moment to factor another little person into the mix. I have major reservations about the dynamics of three children too and I have always thought that having children can’t be one of those ‘suck it and see’ situations. I mean you can’t give them back once they are here!
For us, two years in things are better than ever. We have our roles and routines. We have been forced to support each other so heavily and hopefully I can speak for both of us when I say its just happy times at the moment. It feels a little cliche to say that, it comes from an honest place though. It hasn’t always been the smoothest of relationships which I have talked about here. So I think you can allow me this happy clap post.