At the start of the year I made the decision to stop working night shifts and concentrate on my blog. I was nervous about giving up a guaranteed income and making the leap into this highly saturated competitive industry. Even more nervous about the element of being self employed.
The most joyless part of the process has been that I am absolutely useless when it comes to computers and it has taken me a very long time to understand and learn how to use blogging platforms. I am not very good at asking for help and I would rather struggle and read endless ‘how to guides’ until I finally work it out for myself. The information was always there but it just never seemed to go in. Computers and technology are just so far from where my skills lie. I just want to make things look pretty and photograph them but that alone doesn’t pay the bills.
The last two months have been very experimental and definitely a learning process for me. Both in terms of how the hell to do things and also what feels right and what really doesn’t. I have gone from one week not posting anything on the blog at all to the next week posting everyday.
I started my blog with the intention of being a parenting blogger. This was because back in 2014 when I first had the blog, being a mother seemed like my only dimension. I have since then developed some self confidence and stopped being so bloody tough on myself. I am flawed but I believe I try to be the best that I can be. (C-section pouch to boot). This is why you may have notice a little toe dipping into fashion blogging.
These last two months have changed me. I am now in control of my own workload. Its possible for me to earn money doing all the things that I love and most importantly I am able to be there 100% for my children. Not to mention all the amazing people I have met. Dream job right? Absolutely. Don’t be fooled though there are many negatives that you don’t see behind closed doors.
Bloggers are often misunderstood. I am always honest about when I have been gifted items but I get that it can come across like I have a crazy spending habit. I mean how many candles can one girl need right? Don’t answer that question, I don’t think I can bear to hear the answer. This has triggered some extremely abusive trolling recently. I spent a day crying and toying with whether I should address it or not and whether ultimately do I have the backbone to be able to cope with this kind of treatment.
I don’t want to dwell on it. What I decided was that I am now going to have a blanket rule. If you disagree with me thats fine and I love to hear your thoughts, Im so open to know what other people think. However if you are just here to insult me I will just delete your comment and not give it a second thought. I don’t want to have to talk about trolling again. I don’t believe that bloggers should have to tolerate it as part and parcel of the job.
I am so grateful for everyone that has taken the time to come and have a look at my blog and even more so for all the amazing comments. You guys have helped me more than you will ever know. I now don’t have to do a job that I absolutely hated and was making me ill. I am still finding my feet but at least I know what a widget even is now! Thank you google for always having my back.
(Photographs by Katrina)