I haven’t blogged all week as it has been half term and that has zapped all the creative energy from me. Today Harbor is back at school and Sonny is back having a rest so it has given me chance to have a little catch up.
It’s been quite an emotional week. Firstly I made the decision that I wouldn’t write for Rock My Family anymore after receiving some more negativity on one of my posts. I spent far too much of my time feeling upset and anxious that I just thought it wasn’t right for me anymore. So now the focus is solely on my own blog and it feels great. For some reason the followers on RMF didn’t really understand me.
So this half term I talked Si into having the week off with us. I always fantasise about half term week being such an adventure and full of fun but I have learnt now that it becomes very difficult to keep children entertained when you are one parent. So he was roped in.
Day one and Si had arranged to play golf all morning. Apparently this was agreed however there was no evidence on the calendar so I was fucking furious. Still I managed to cram two parks trips, shopping and getting my nails done into day one and then walked round like an absolute boss. (Always so cocky on day one of half term)
As payback Day two was ALL about finding the perfect pumpkins and we went to Over Farm to get them. They had a Spook Fest on too so there were tractor rides and shows for the kids!
I had planned for us to go to Chessington on the Wednesday but the car had to go into the garage so we had a day painting leaf pictures, painting polystyrene skulls from Hobbycraft and carving pumpkins. It was actually nice to stay indoors all four of us.
All in all a very normal week. The clocks went back and the boys went to bed early so I settled down to chill out with Netflix. At 10pm Sonny started coughing really badly so I went in to check on him and he was hardly breathing. Struggling for air. We rang for an ambulance which arrived in minutes. I have never been in a situation like this before (apart from calling an ambulance for Si when he staged some sort of heart attack. We found out it wasn’t after he had a double dose of morphine and was as high as a kite) It was terrifying and I felt so helpless. The paramedics were fantastic and made me feel like it was going to be absolutely fine. That was until I was in the ambulance and they called it in to Intensive care and used words like ‘Severe’. I panicked and started sweating. I got so dizzy that once we arrived they had to lie me down in the ambulance for a few minutes to calm me down. By this point Sonny had seemed to make a full recovery.
They had given him adrenaline which meant he had to stay in hospital for another four hours to be monitored. Si and I were absolutely shattered. Being a diva and nearly fainting is tiring work! Sonny was just so adorable to the doctors. It was so heart warming to see my polite little boy even when he was being prodded and poked into the early hours. It turns out he has a bad case of Croup. He’s still under the weather but doing so much better now.